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© 2019 by Denny Balish

  • Denny Balish

Perfect, Whole and Free


We are all born as beautiful spiritual beings into the family of man—perfect, whole and free as God intended us to be. We are arrived with unlimited potential and a sacred duty to love and to be loved. When we live from the energy of love, we create “Heaven on Earth.”


I liken our soul to a multi-faceted crystal with the ability to reflect Spirit’s light in myriad ways, like a rainbow. We are born crystal clear, yet over the course of time we may encounter people, situations, or events that darken our crystal-self, leaving us feeling flawed, broken, or bound to a pain of which we cannot get free.


We become ashamed, fearful, angry. We loose our sense of connection with the Divine. We move away from the energy of love and into the energy of fear. When we do this we create our own private “Hell.”


You are not alone.  I have lived through more “hellish” nights than I care to admit and yet, I am now living a life I love (well, most days).  It isn't always pretty, and it is by no means perfect—after all, I'm on the eternal plan—but I have so much more hope, peace, and joy than I ever thought possible.


It didn’t come easy. I spent many years in untold turmoil complaining, worrying, and angry at the world.  With good reason, I thought, for my relationships were in shambles, my finances teetering on the brink of bankruptcy, and my fragile mind succumbing to the inevitable pull of very black hole.


During some of my darkest days, I would wake in the morning, look into the mirror and be startled by who was looking back at me.  I could no longer see my beauty, feel my glory, hear my own wise voice.


Out of desperation, I began a spiritual quest in search of a God different than the one with whom I had been raised. I didn’t know at the time, but I was really looking for myself.


I went about my life like many do – going to college, getting a job, exploring my interests, falling in love, getting married, having a child – but I felt like something was missing…likeI was missing.  I felt like I didn't even know who I was anymore and why, in God's name I was even put on earth in the first place.  Frightfully, I had lost touch with the real, essential me—themethat is whole, perfect and free.  I felt like damaged goods.


I’ll have to admit that there were times (many perhaps) when I thought this business of being a spiritual being having a human experience was for the birds.  I didn't like it and I told God so...often.  I shook my fist, cried, yelled, and begged God to make it easier for me.


“Aren’t you on my side?” I pleaded.


Silence.


“Aren’t you listening?”


Silence.


Argh!


I imagine now how patiently God waited for me to expend my angst, get a grip and calm the heck down much like a loving parent waiting for their ranting trying-to-understand-this-confusing-world toddler. It’s all a part of growing up.


Well, I remained true and steadfast on my course and gratefully over time, God and I became pretty good friends.


I eventually graduated from metaphysical preschool and entered an exciting period of deep exploration, learning and personal transformation. Although I have come a long way, I still feel like a dropout at times but I keep on going. After all, like I said, I am on the eternal plan.


I have survived an abusive childhood, failed marriage, unsatisfying jobs, financial calamity, depression, illness and more but, through the grace of God, I have come to bless each and every bit of my soul's unfolding journey. And it is with deep appreciation that I am now able to help others do the same.


So, what’s your story? What caused your perfect, whole and free beautiful crystal-self to become tarnished over the course of time? This gal wants to know. Let’s talk…